BREAKING THE ALL OR NOTHING HABIT!

I have some disturbing news.  I did not lose any weight this week.  Not one ounce!  In fact, when I hopped on the scale on "Weigh-in Tuesday," it read the exact same number as last Tuesday.  The old Jennifer would freak out and revert right back to bad habits, throwing her arms in the air and saying, "pffftt...I'm screwed no matter what I do!"  The new Jennifer, the less perfectionistic Jennifer, knows better.  Weight-loss is about finishing the race, not how fast you run it!  If I were to pinpoint one single concept that has held me back from success in almost every aspect of my life, it would be the "all or nothing" attitude; the idea that I have to do something perfectly all the time or I'd rather not do it at all.  I set such high standards for myself and those around me, that I often do not complete a task for fear of mediocrity.  I have re-started more diets than you can imagine due to what I perceive as, "failures in the execution," all along never coming to terms with the reality of the situation...had I just kept on going I would have reached my goal by now!  So I refuse to do that to myself again, nor will I punish myself for it.

I had a great week of exercise and diet, maybe not as perfect as my first week, and maybe not as fruitful, but fabulous none the less.  For me to have lost seven pounds in seven days was nothing less then spectacular, and to have maintained that loss for an additional week is even more spectacular.  I am going to finish this race!  I may not do everything perfect.  I may set goals that I miss or am slow to reach.  I may even take a step back once in awhile, but one thing is for sure, I am not stopping until I am back to a healthy, happy, satisfying weight!  What does no weight loss mean to me??  It means I'm going to work that much harder this week.  I don't know or understand everything that my body is going through right now.  What I do know is that it is busy making a lot of adjustments.  I'm going to continue to give my body what it needs to reach an enlightened homeostasis...and I'm going to write this damn blog every day until I reach it.


“Perfectionism is self-abuse of the highest order” -Anne Wilson Schaef