I would like to take just a moment to say hello from Mars and offer my apology for disappearing off the face of the Earth. I let Jennifer down and also all you kind folks at home who are following our plight with us. Let's just say that I had reached a level of stress that was unsurpassed even for myself and I was having a hard time keeping up. I also had double carpal tunnel hand surgery in December, so my hands were rendered nearly useless for several weeks. Now my hands are restored to 90% of my pre-carpal tunnel function, which is awesome. The "electric shock" up my arms and into my neck has stopped, the spontaneous falling-asleep of my hands has stopped, and I no longer briefly entertain the notion of disowning either one of them. The only drawback is two little scars that you can barely see, and the middle finger on my left hand from the knuckle down is still numb for some reason. So if there happen to be any "e's, d's or c's" missing from my text, please excuse the typeo as I really did think I hit the key. I will be filling in for Jennifer to give her time to recoop (way to go Dario--keep your boogies to yourself next time ; ) ) I would also like to contribute a couple times a week hereafter, if you all will have me.
What I've been up to: I have not been dieting during this time, per say, but rather battling the urges to sit on my butt and stuff my face in boredom, self pity and bad indulgence. That in itself has been work, and actually productive because I am learning the self discipline to control it and move forward. The last two weeks have been particularly good for me. I am drinking water and not soda, I am making smarter food choices, and I am trying to read labels and eliminate as many chemicals and additives from my diet and my family's diet as I can.
I will say though that willpower can be a b@tch!
I had an odd moment at the store earlier, picking up some pre-sleet milk so I won't have to run out for my youngest child later. I picked up a Greek-style yogurt and then I found a sale on canned vegetables for .32 per can and decided to stock up. On my way to the checkout I passed the "Hostess" stand with the fruit pies, cupcakes, and doughnuts. *arghhhhhhh*
The Martian within was hollering! After quite the mental struggle, I picked up a lemon pie and put it into the cart and went to the check out with full vile intentions to eat at least half of it (if not the whole thing, after all, I'd been SO good!) I paid for my purchase and went to my truck. I put the veggies and the milk in and then picked up the last bag that had the yogurt and the fruit pie. NO fruit pie........ I scratched my head, double checked the cart and the bags of veggies. STILL no fruit pie. I checked my receipt and it wasn't even on there. Just the yogurt......
Now I am trying to figure out if I have gone nuts. I have been working so hard to fight these urges, I am wondering if I even actually put it in the basket....maybe the checkout girl forgot or didn't see it somehow.... Hell, maybe the guy behind me ate it when I wasn't looking. Then I considered it might be a divine intervention moment telling me to stay the path and behave myself.
I meekly got into the truck and ate my yogurt.
Mars sucks. Flying home to Earth, looking much like the shuttle!
What I've been up to: I have not been dieting during this time, per say, but rather battling the urges to sit on my butt and stuff my face in boredom, self pity and bad indulgence. That in itself has been work, and actually productive because I am learning the self discipline to control it and move forward. The last two weeks have been particularly good for me. I am drinking water and not soda, I am making smarter food choices, and I am trying to read labels and eliminate as many chemicals and additives from my diet and my family's diet as I can.
I will say though that willpower can be a b@tch!
I had an odd moment at the store earlier, picking up some pre-sleet milk so I won't have to run out for my youngest child later. I picked up a Greek-style yogurt and then I found a sale on canned vegetables for .32 per can and decided to stock up. On my way to the checkout I passed the "Hostess" stand with the fruit pies, cupcakes, and doughnuts. *arghhhhhhh*
The Martian within was hollering! After quite the mental struggle, I picked up a lemon pie and put it into the cart and went to the check out with full vile intentions to eat at least half of it (if not the whole thing, after all, I'd been SO good!) I paid for my purchase and went to my truck. I put the veggies and the milk in and then picked up the last bag that had the yogurt and the fruit pie. NO fruit pie........ I scratched my head, double checked the cart and the bags of veggies. STILL no fruit pie. I checked my receipt and it wasn't even on there. Just the yogurt......
Now I am trying to figure out if I have gone nuts. I have been working so hard to fight these urges, I am wondering if I even actually put it in the basket....maybe the checkout girl forgot or didn't see it somehow.... Hell, maybe the guy behind me ate it when I wasn't looking. Then I considered it might be a divine intervention moment telling me to stay the path and behave myself.
I meekly got into the truck and ate my yogurt.
Mars sucks. Flying home to Earth, looking much like the shuttle!
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